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A Story All too Often Told


Even the wisest of men don’t see when they’re about to be blindsided, for if they could then how could it be labeled such? No sense of togetherness, completeness, or awareness is completely fool proof; one cannot possibly look at every minute angle at once. But far less plausible is the idea that they can not only look in every direction simultaneously, but process and understand the information they receive in doing so and use it to completely and accurately predict future events. No, a wise man can still be made a fool, so much so that he questions the reality of his supposed wisdom, and wonders if it existed in the first place.
I think of it this way: wisdom envies the need to love, be loved, and to belong. The aforementioned _need_ wields such awesome powers of persuasion that they can be likened, perhaps, to the hammer of Thor. What is wisdom though apart from words and ideas implanted into the mind as part of growing up? How is it more than a quiet voice, or a book that’s so easily ignored? It’s nothing, literally nothing more. It speaks, but even the loudest voice can’t be heard over the strike of an almighty hammer and a crack of thunder. It’s a book those of us who care to read often flip open for guidance, filling in the blanks as we go – maybe it starts out, when we’re 3, telling us that maybe we ought not touch that stove – it’ll hurt, very bad, but expands as we grow so that by the time we reach adulthood, we know who to trust and who to be careful with, among other things. It can’t remind us of all of its words if it’s closed though, or if its voice is muted – I’ve learned that way too many times and I think you have as well, at some point.
Even to the wisest of men, beauty speaks louder than wisdom, and being blindsided by so much of it strips the wise man of all his inhibitions except those of greatest importance. Wisdom is cast aside like yesterday’s leftovers, then the need to love and be loved and belong takes over, and brings with it some of its best friends – compassion, empathy, fondness, desire, love, and blissful blindness. And together, those little guys, so small and cute and dressed like angels, softly caress with gentle hands the wise man’s misgivings into loving, trusting submission, whispering softly to them that everything is going to be okay; “Let down your guard, this will make you happy. Let the heart guide the way.”

It’s all foolish fantasy though, and any truly wise man should, and would, know that. The heart casts aside everything that is logical, everything that is, in favor of “hope hope, hope hope, hope hope, hope hope, hope hope,” ringing the word with every beat. It tells you it’s okay to feel the way you do, that everything will work out like you wanted it to in the end; ‘Don’t worry! We got this!’
And in the background- the book of wisdom, that living, talking, apparently not so all knowing source of guidance, sits patiently in the background – and it waits, waits for the man to realize that his heart is wrong and it was right all along. And on that day when he inevitably falls on his face, abandoned by his broken heart or rolling on to his side, wiping the blood from his chin and staring despairingly into its helpless eyes, wisdom comes back and extends a hand to help the man up. And it speaks, in its ever quiet voice, “See what I was saying, you foolish little child? I still have much to teach you. Now we aren’t going to let this happen again, are we?”
And all the wise man can do is hang his head in humility, and lie to wisdom itself once more: “No. I’ve finally learned my lesson.”
But do you hear me? Do you hear me more clearly than I hear myself? I speak these words so often in my own mind that they are a mantra, so why can’t I understand them? If you have read any of this and given it so much as a second’s thought, then yes. You hear me, and that’s enough for me.

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Back To School


Hey Guys,
Steve here.

Well I found out something very interesting yesterday! Apparently, it’s actually possible to carry out a Skype conversation with a… cat!
I was in a Skype call with Danny, trying to record an episode of my Podcast. However, Danny had to take a break in the middle to eat dinner. While he was gone, his cat started meowing for no apparent reason, so I meowed back at her to see if she’d answer. Guess what? She did! And since I still had the recording configuration used for my podcast set up, I was able to record a little ten second clip of it.

Maybe, just maybe, she was meowing for a totally different reason, but I’m humorous. So I say she was chatting with me. And it’s not like she can deny that… or can she?

Anyways, besides chatting with cats, life has been pretty good over the last month, even though school started back up last week. Most of my classes this year aren’t bad, well not really, although some of them are a real pain to get to, which is why I got lost twice so far.
Besides getting lost, I’m already getting homework. In fact, that started the second freaking day I attended geometry! However, the teacher seems nice and helpful, so I don’t think there will be any trouble there.
In addition to the homework, I’ve been having some technological issues in a few of my classes, and am afraid I’ll have to leave one of them for that reason. I don’t know what it is with Microsoft Office products, but they just keep going down hill in terms of accessibility. Worse still, they are practically a necessity in college and the work force these days, so I’m not really sure what I’m going to do once I get to that stage of my life unless something can be done.
That said, Microsoft Office is practically the back bone of the class in which I’m struggling. So unless they manage to fix their accessibility issues, I’m not quite sure how I’m going to pass that class.

On a more positive note, development with S Quad Racing, sluggish as it is, is going quite well. I had to fix some annoying bugs this evening, bugs that of course didn’t pop up until I tried to record the audio demo (figures). But rather than make sure all current bugs are patched up, I’ll just go ahead and throw together a demo recording, because in the next couple days I want to code in surfaces, but before I make such a big change to game play I really think I should get a recording of the game in its current state. Besides, that demo is pretty much 2 months over due, so yeah.

That concludes the posting for tonight. Be sure to stop by and listen to podcast episode 38, which demonstrates RS Games, and is as usual packed with mine and Danny’s twisted sense of humor. Please, listen to it. It took us 3 attempts to record that thing!

Thanks for reading,
type you later,
Steve.

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gaming and podcast updates


Hey guys,
Steve here.

Alright, I have to admit something. I’ve been slacking off, quite majorly, especially in the pod cast department. I had a very good chance to record the Road To Rage Episode last week, as a quite horiffic battle took place between my friend and I and two other players, who not only seamed to have an unlimited supply of health, but also some wickedly awesome guns, some of which were capable of putting someone down in 3 quick shots. All of that resulted in a 15 minute streak of epicly loud gun fire, frustrated screams of agony over the chat system, and people dieing left and right. Although my ratio of kills to deaths was something along the lines of 2 to 6, I still had quite a good time and wish I’d recorded it. I suppose one of the main reasons I didn’t record it was that I was on a time crunch, and it can take a good minute after a podcast is recorded before I can officially say it’s online, and also that was on Wednesday, not Sunday.
But anyways, I’ll be sure to definitely record it this time, even if it means recording it before Sunday and waiting until then to post it. Either way, expect podcast Episode 25 this Sunday, and I promise, for real this time, not to let you down.

Besides slacking off the pod casts, I’ve done quite a bit of swamping over the past two weeks. I haven’t updated you guys on my swamp progress in a while, so I suppose I’ll do that now
-I’m level 84 now. If I’d become level 84 in a previous version of the game, such as 3.1 or below, I could’ve become a hard core character, something I’ve been wanting to try out. But no, I have to get to level 150… so I still have quite a few more levels to go. On the bright side, I’m over half way!
-Since Christmas day, I’ve spent 1 week, 1 day, and about 2 hours, playing the game. All that, plus the time I played on my old computer, and I’m still not even level 100 yet?
-I have some pretty nifty armor at the moment. I’m still able to move fast, but get >70% protection.
Also, I have a long bow, and a very powerful machine gun, so I shouldn’t be dieing any time soon. I suppose that’s something to be excited about.

Anyway, off the topic of gaming, my last couple weeks have been more or less uneventful, besides school, doing a bit of technical work with my friend’s website, and as previously mentioned, playing games. Very early this morning, I managed to catch a rather epic storm recording, the result of a pretty good hail storm that came through, dumping a whole bunch of what appears to be nickle to quarter sized hail. (yeah, leave it up to Severe Storm Steve to get up at 4:00 in the morning to record a thunderstorm). Anyhow, here’s the recording:
download and listen on your pc
or here’s the imbedded player:

To me, that sounds a lot like the ice storm I recorded back in December of last year.
Moving on to the future, I have a choir concert next week. Apparently we have to wear a tuxedo, and I still don’t have one. I really need to get on that though, because I’m not going to get a poor grade because I wasn’t in propper clothes.. Also, report cards are coming out this week. I feel confident that I’ve passed all my classes–last time I checked, I had a 92 in algebra, a 98 in business information management, and I don’t know what the exact grade is, but I’m passing English. As for History and Spanish, I really have no reason to be failing those classes, so I’m pretty sure I’m passing them.

Well, it’s kind of late, so I should be getting in bed right about now. I hope you enjoyed this post, and I look forward to writing another. Also, stay in tune for the podcast next Sunday.

Thanks for reading,
Type you later,
Steve.

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Life updates and a weather wrip-off


Hey guys,
Steve here.

It’s Monday, yet it has already been half the school week. Tomorrow we have school, and then we’re done!

Last weekend, the good weekend it was, ended in a great disappointment. You know that winter storm I was so excited about? Turns out, the prediction was off by 3 degrees; if it had been just a simple 3 degrees colder we would’ve been slammed by unprecedented winter precipitation. In total, one half inch or greater amounts of rain fell across North Texas. According to this artical on the RAL Weather Center website, we could’ve been dealing with between 1.5 and 5 inches of snow, thus leading to a rare and potentially significant storm, one that would certainly reach Winter Storm Warning criteria.
Unfortunately however, the forecast changed approximately 1 hour and 12 minutes after update two of my storm monitoring update was posted to the Weather forecasts page at 6:45 PM CST. Basically, meteorologists decided at last minute that the ground would be too warm to sustain any winter precipitation accumulations, and it turns out no precipitation of that type fell where I live anyway. Although there is the possibility for snow flurries tonight, as stated by my NOAA weather radio, school will most definitely not be canceled for tomorrow, a pretty sucky thing since my school district is like the only one in school this week.

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Changing subjects, I have been doing good, but rather cold this Monday and the recent weekend. On Saturday after posting that blog post, I went bowling as promised, and scored 117 points. And, as if the day couldn’t have been any more predictible, I spent the rest of the afternoon, you guessed it, chillin’.
Yesterday, after going to church in that windy blustery weather, I got to chill because I had no sister around, :). I did the following productive things yesterday:
-became a second year student at hogwarts (on the game I play that is supposed to simulate hogwarts, you have to become a level 15, defeat Voldemort, and you advance a year. After the normal seven years at Hogwarts, your title changes to wizard, and eventually god, and I don’t know what from there).
-Took a nap. I consider this a rather productive activity; it recharges your energy level, so you can be ready for the next chapter of your life.
-Figured out what I want to do for my history project and how I’m going to do it.
-Went to church
-Okay, not sure why I’m adding this to my list. This isn’t something productive I did, but I just needed a fifth thing :)).
As for today, I was very tired. A major factor in this was probably the fact that it was almost as dark as night time all day long, it was raining, and it was freezing cold. Inexcusable act(s) of pure stupidity I committed are as follows:
-wore a light sweater to school.
-went to Starbucks and got myself a large frozen coffee drink before having to go outside in this weather. That made my perception of the temperature, or wind chill, someware in the 5 to 10 degree range.
As for right now, I am just lieing hear, typing this blog post. I have nothing else to do for the rest of the evening, except putting up my laundry. *groans* But then again my mom did have to fold, wash, and dry it all for me, so I have the easy task really :))).
Thanks for reading this post, I hope you enjoyed it. The next time I blog will likely be sometime during the break. But just encase it’s not before Friday:
travel safe, eat lots of turkey, stay warm, enjoy thanksgiving, and have a great week!

Thanks for reading,
type you later,
Steve

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the passed five days of Steven D’s story of a life: goalball, school insidences, future events…


Hey you guys,
Steve here.

I’m finally back, after a rather unusually long absence. It just seems that lately, the days are going by so fast, five day periods like this one just come and go in the blink of an eye. I just don’t get it.
Anyway, to keep this post a little bit short, I’ll tell you what you need to know.
As for my life, that has been going great since I last updated you. I have been attending school, working on stranded, chilling, and goal balling. I don’t know if I told you this or not, but I set myself a goal on stranded. If I told you this on Wednesday, you can either read this again because you enjoy my blog posts, or you can skip ahead a couple lines.
My goal for this game is that I will work on it at least once every day. I don’t care if it’s one page; even one sentence will do. But I really have to do this; because if I don’t, I could lose motivation to work on any further developments or forget about the project all together. I’m sure that both you and I don’t want any of that to happen.
Back to my life, there is some stuff that will be going on in my life in the near future. On Wednesday, if I have a ride home, I will be going after school to do a service project for NJHS, which if you recall back in march I joined the day before my birthday. NJHS, or National Junior honor Society (for those who don’t know), is something that if you keep good grades, and manage to make it in there in the first place will look good on your college applications. Anyway, that will get me one service hour (we have to have 10 and oh crap I don’t have one 😦 ).
With that being said, I also have another Orchestra concert coming up on December third. But since that’s far away, and we have a break in between now and then, I will not talk much about it in this blog post.
Also while we’re on the subject of school, I got a big scare in Spanish class last week. For some reason, my report card said I got a 73. As you know, I’m not the kind of student who would score such a tremendously poor (in my book) score, so I was a bit worried. Turns out, I was worried for nothing. My grade in there is a 90. I don’t know if the grades got mixed up or what, but I’m just glad I have a better grade than previously thought.
Next Tuesday (I can’t believe it), is the start of thanksgiving break. I can’t wait for that! Also note that three weeks after that is Christmas break.
As for weather, it is supposed to get really cold this weekend. This week will be in the 60’s with partly sunny to mostly cloudy skies for the next few days, but Thursday into Friday, a cold front will come in and oh boy. It’s supposed to fall into the upper 40’s Friday afternoon with strong winds and rain. What a nice day for some coco and a day of chilling… sucks I’ll have to be at school.
Saturday through Monday are also expected to be in the upper 40’s.
While we’re still on the topic of weather, two extraordinary weather events have taken place, that leave me just a tad bit worried. First it was tropical storm Haiyan that slammed into the Philippines. That killed around 4000 people is what they’re saying. Also last weekend there were 40 tornadoes in Illinois. That is highly unusual for both the state, and the month the tornadoes occurred in… hmm.
On a last note, the development process of Stranded Part Three is going well. I have put in an obstacle course, which contains an avoid-the-RPG board. This is like whack a mole, but the RPGS pop out and you have to dive and/or jump in a different direction to avoid them. I will not disclose any more information on this object; you’ll just have to wait.
As far as pod casting goes, I have done episode 13. My parents have taken the carpet out of my room (their redoing carpet upstairs), and all my stuff with it. Once I get settled again, I’ll record episodes 14 and 15.
Other than that, I don’t have much else to say except…

Thanks for reading,
type you later,
Steve.

P.s. I’ve grown addicted to this game Hogwarts Live for about the third time. I’m not sure if I’ve mentioned it on the blog before, but if I haven’t here’s the link:
http://www.hogwartslive.com
I hope you enjoy both that game, and this post.